I saw her yesterday and today. We didn't talk at all. I don't know what to say and i got no courage to just look at her. I really never give up on her. I don't bear to let go. I scare i make a wrong decision again. That's why, my friend told me you not good, but i choose to believe myself that it won't goes wrong. I just now went drinking. Only two things can let me don't think about all this stuffs. Drinking and basketball. I really don't know what's she thinking. I want to understand her and stay by her side when she need someone. Today is already (58days) How can i touched her and make her love me? Sigh! I always put on a smile. Do you people know how difficult to put on a fake smile, I doesn't want to say anymore. Let nature takes its course! :'( i 've been crying at home for the past few days at home. (58days)