Ohmygod! What should i do?!?! I don't know what to do right now. I feel so nervous, anxious and scared! How?! Arghhhhhhhhhh.. If is positive i don't know. But, if is negative i rather i don't know about it. (: Heh!!!

I reached at 12noon. After playing the football manager, i fell asleep. O: Slept until 7 plus. Prepare and went down to timah and pool with friends. (: i text her and she replied. Happy luh! Monday, is either a happy or a sad day for me. Hmm, yes. So what if i'm reaching the finishing line and you haven't? No matter what, i will turn back and walk with you. At your pace, slow or fast is not up to me. I think positively but do you? You know, no matter what answer you give me on monday. I'll respect your decision. But, i won't give up, still. I just hope everything will be the same. |: i won't cross the finishing line unless you've done so. I've think a lot of times, i won't regret it. :D its late. Everyone should be sleeping now. So, goodnights! Bye.. Post real soon alright.

I don't know what to say. I just want to have a good chat with her. She changed, alot. Sigh, i hope she won't walk away just like this. Hmm, waiting for her N's to over. So, we can have a good chat. I really hope the answer will be positive. Just, doing a short post. Going for balling later! Bye..

I went to school as normal. When i reach school, i was happily chatting with my friends. After the morning assembly. OM call for me and my friends. We have poor attendance. I didn't go school for 18 days with no valid reason. And, my four friends got 25, 50, 51 and even 89 days. Now, i don't know how am i going to tell my parents that I'm being suspended until my EOY. Not only my parents. And her.. She had enough of stress. I doesn't want to let her know I'm being suspended and make her worried. O: i just hope she won't be angry after reading this post. I don't mind not going to school. But, i just want my exams to pass. I promise my parents, friends and even my probation officer. I told him..
ME: After my probation i will still continue to study.
Officer: Alright, that's great. When you get good result, you can always come to my office and see me.
ME: No way! I doesn't want to step in MCYS again. (:
Officer: Alright. We'll meet outside some other day.
I really don't know what to do. Seriously, should i just?..

Come on, I'm just kinda of jealous luh. Nothing to worry and think about. Just, be happy okay. Don't know whether you're asleep or awake. Call you once and i stop. Afraid that you'll be sleeping. (: i will tell you if i am unhappy about anything okay. Ha ha! No photos to post. Randomly choose some.. :D

Remember not to skip your meals. You were complaining hungry and you still doesn't want to eat! :@


You say i am weird. You say is complicated. You say is difficult to influence another one. You say you will be thinking. You say you are scare. You say is not simple to make it not complicated. You were told to give other people a chance and open your heart to someone else. I heard it. I just pretend i didn't heard it. I just want to let you know, no matter what answer you give. I still won't give up on you.. O:

Now i know, why people say things shouldn't be rushed. Hmm, so i've decided to stop contacting her because she won't be stress and her life won't be more complicated. Also, her friend won't keep asking her about me. She will be happy. As long as she is happy then i'm happy. I don't know what to say, i just can't let go of her. She's like, the one i love the most. So, i won't give up on her that easily. If she choose to give up on me i got nothing to say. But, i'll still loving her and waiting for her no matter what. Even after her N level she still don't choose me, i'll continue waiting. Because, i know its worth it to do all this. She wants me to continue with my life, and look for other girl. You still have things that can't let go easily. Therefore, i still got someone i can't forget and that person is non other that you. Get it? Believe it or not, the choice is yours. Yes, i didn't put in effort. But, even if i have put in effort. Will you still give me a chance? Yea, you thought of giving me a chance. End up?, you didn't! :'( sigh..

God, please tell me what can i do so she will not cry and think of other stuffs? God, please tell me what can i do so she will keep smiling everyday? Hmm, Just, goodluck for your paper and don't think too much alright. I believe you can do it. Don't care about how others see you and criticize you. I say you're good means you're good! :D Trust me or stranger? Heh! I've been thinking a lot nowadays. I hope you're okay with your paper. I hope you didn't flunk your paper because of me. I will wait until your N level over! Promise are not mend to be broken!!! :):):)

I don't know what to say. I'm speechless, nothing to say. ): you feel unsafe, tears are fill in your eyes. I really don't know what to do. You say you doesn't want to hurt me. But, Have you ever think on the positive side before? I really don't know what can i do so you will not feel this way. I asked you, is there anything making you feel unhappy? You told me you're fine and ask me not to worry. How can i not worry about you? You're the person i love. How can you ask someone that love you not to worry, if i say i will not worry about you but does that mean i can really don't worry about you? I've been finding an answer. Am i fit to be with you, am i fit to takecare of you, am i fit to be your everything? I haven't found the answer. Hmm, i thought of meeting you and give you a hug. Because, i think you'll feel better if someone is beside you. But.. I'm jealous, while writing this post. My tears drop down, this is my first time doing posting and my tears drop. I will still pretend nothing had happened before. I will continue to treat you good and everything. I will try my best to protect you, even if i have to sacrifice my life. I'm willing to do it. I want you to be safe&sound. That's all. Now, i don't mind you're with me or not.. As long as i can see you smile happily, i'm happy too. All my fault. I was the one who causes out so many unhappy things. )': I hope everything goes well too! :|

Hello. The photo of me is i inside class. I'm bored. And the other photo is me and Ah-Hem. She adorable! I love her!!! :D today i meet up with her. I'm happy!