Just got home from after a tough training. Get scolded by the coach for not performing well because my mind got so much stuffs. During training, when we run. I was the first to reach, but today everything seems to be so different. I don't know how to say. Its just so different. I was showing coach attitude and didn't want to play anymore. I was sub out and sit at a corner watching my teammates playing. Everyone can perform so well except me. Tournament are starting soon. If i really can't perform like how yesterday i was. Running up and down when i was really tired and i endure the whole game throughout the 1st quater to the 4th quater. I guess, even if the coach put me in the team. I will also not play. I will let other people take over me, hmm. I did not get a real answer but she did hint me. Sigh. I know what she mean and.. Its over! Wanted to have dinner with my teammates, but i got no appetite so i went home alone. That's all! :'(


After reading your blog, seeing you inside the photo smiling so happily. I'm also happy. I don't know if you really put up a real smile in front of the camera. I reach home at about 6.15am. And, i sleep at 6.50am. I wake up at 1.30pm, seriously, I'm very tired! I got a friendly match yesterday and today i got training. Seriously, not i don't want to care for you. I got very little time only. I still care for you. I got training this few days and i can go back to school already. How much time can i care and accompany you? My outside club tournament is starting in 2 weeks later. Hmm, i can only meet you tomorrow. I hope you'll be free to meet me tomorrow. I don't know how to say some things, better don't say better! Ohyah, i got to apologize to her because i say i doesn't want to meet her already. Okay, i take back what I've said and i want to meet you! :D (64 days of waiting ):